The crack that will start the cavern.

I lean against the cold cement wall trying to collect my thoughts, trying to process so I can fully reveal what this trip has meant. It's hard to clear my mind when all I hear are words floating from one side of the room to the other. It's hard to concentrate when there is always someone five feet from you, no room to be alone, no time to breathe. I try my best to block it all out and come with a blank slate ready to be filled with words, emotions, thoughts, and heart. I'll begin to write, begin to expose the depth of this trip. It may take me hours, days, it may not be ready until I get home but at least I will have started.

I feel as if my time in Jerusalem is the heaviest on my heart right now. It was an odd array of days for me. My body was shutting down, my heart was burdened, my mind racing and my knees brought to the cold stone in prayer the Lord would use me as we traveled his Holy Land. As a team we have regularly had at least an hour of quiet time each day followed by an hours of bible study. We have been studying in this book called The Secrets Of The Vine and it has challenged me to analyze the vine of my life and the fruit it produces. Thus it's challenging me to till the earth with calloused hands and open my eyes to the fruit the Lord reveals. And that is what brought my to my knees in prayer I will be used. Our mission is to live love as Jesus did. And to live out this mission on the same streets he walked is still an aspect I'm having troubles fully grasping. We continuously pray for divine appointments within our day and try to live with love our pouring unto our neighbors. With this lifestyle the Lord has revealed to us relationship after relationship. The stories I mention in my prior posts are merely cracks that open into caverns with stories and hours spent with these wonderful people. We awake every morning with the intention to impact others and spread the love of our Father as we do our day to day plans. We are always ready and excited to change our day if it means we get to pour of love onto someone else. As my body heals, so does my heart and I know it will take a while until my mind settles from this trip - so for now these words are all I can produce. Maybe tomorrow will bring new light and more time to share. For this too is only the crack that will start the cavern.